interview nervousness

well my interview for second assistant store manager is tomorrow and i am starting to get a bit nervous! i feel like i have prepared but i know myself and i know that i am bound to stumble over my words... i just hope that i don't sound like a complete moron! I am also putting a lot of pressure on myself because i need to get this job to keep my track going because if i don't get it if feel like i am going to completely deflate and just settle with being a checker forever... plus the pay raise would be really great!

In addition i have been on my diet for 7 days and i have lost 4lbs! i got a lot more to lose but i'm proud that i made it through a week!

anyways nothing else really to write about but i'll keep u up to date on the job... they said they will be decided by the beginning of next week

bit's a pieces

Well there have been a few well no too interesting things going on lately so i thought i'd do a short blog with just a few recaps on things here and there.

* I have been preparing for my interview to become second assistant at Safeway. The interview is on the 17th of November and will be a panel interview with Brett our district manager, Signe our HR rep and maybe another store manager. I'm a bit nervous but i think I'm kinda prepared. i can only do as best as i can do and if it's not good enough then I'm just not ready. I'm just afraid that i'm just wanna give up.

* I've been trying my best to hang out with all my friends lately because i really do love them all and wish i could spend all my free time with all of them. Last weekend i had lunch with crystal and her son at the Cheesecake factory and then this weekend i had breakfast with Linnea. These are the friends with kids so it is harder to get time together. it was nice to be able to hang out with them and catch up!

* I've been thinking a lot about the fact that i'm on depression med's. i for one am not ashamed or embarrassed to be on them but i have come across people lately who say they are unhappy but refused to be on depression med's because they should be able to make themselves happy. i have thought a lot about that and wondered if i should have tried harder to make myself happy. i have come to the compulsion that i did all that i could to be happy and i did have happy moments but it was the bad times where i would sit and cry for hours over absolutely nothing that made me want to get help. I realized that my uncontrollable mood swings were out of my control and that it just had to be a chemical imbalance because there is no way i would have let myself be so unhappy. I told myself that it was sick of wasted days of crying and i wanted to take my life into my own hands so i got help. and you know what i don't regret a bit of that decision. i have been happy nearly everyday (of course i get upset about normal things but now i can get over them without a complete melt down)

* I've had this overwhelming erge to have a baby lately. i have all this nerturing in me that is just dieing to be released. I love throwing parties because it is a good reason to make fun foods. i love making foods by scratch. i love making my house a home. it love every bit of taking care of mat (even though he doesn't let me take care of him as much as i would like to) i like making him breakfast and lunch and dinner. i love doing his laundry. But this nurturing can only go so far. Now just to convince him that he wants a baby within the next two years.

Halloween Fun

What a wonderful Halloween weekend! Friday i threw a pretty fun Halloween party at my house. even though not all the people who said they were coming came we all still had a good time and did a lot of laughing. Saturday i had to work 10-7 and boy was i hung over! it was so miserable to be stuck in the checkstand feeling like i was going to throw up at any minute. good thing jared was there to let me out when ever i needed him to.... yeah i puked 5 times at work... trust me not something i'm proud of! But eventually i discovered the miracle of 7up and i was feeling much better and the rest of the day at work went get! After work i came home and rested up a bit then headed to Mat's friends Elliott's Halloween party. I didn't really know anyone and the girls all seemed young and skanky and not so interesting so i basically just stood around and people watched. These parties aren't for me i much rather throw a small intimate party with people i know where u don't will crowded and claustrophobic. we didn't stay too late but it was an interesting way to spend Halloween night. over all i think Halloween turned out pretty fun and my $30 poodle skirt was well used lol

Fall Harvest Girls Night

I know i am way backed up on blogging but i have been busy/tired all week.

I Had my fall harvest girls night LAST Tuesday and i gotta say it turned out really successful! i had 7 of my friends come over and i made them all a really yummy dinner of taco soup and empanadas. i was really excited to see everyone eat the soup as well as they all LOVED the empanadas... i might have to make them again. After we all ate (sitting around my table which i loved) we made carmel apples. let me tell you i have never been able to make successful carmel apples! the carmel always seems to slide off the apple! we all enjoyed then still the same. Also during caramel apples we were carving and painting pumpkins. It was all so much fun! everyone's pumpkin turned out really great! I'm pretty sure everyone had a good time and I'm so glad it all turned out successful and i was able to hang out with friends!

Laura painted on stewie to her pumpkin

Crystal choose quite a difficult pattern so she was the last to finish but it turned out great

Tiffany did a great job painting her babies names onto her pumpkin

Linnea did a whole ghost family in anticipation of her new bundle of joy (tony was there to pick her up)

Tara won the prize for the most original pumpkin carved. it really is quite amazing. Kristin did the mud flap girl which looked great too but for some reason i don't have any pictures of it

Fall Brunch

Friday i had my mom and gramz over for a nice fall brunch! i made the most yummy Blueberry delight in the crock pot. It is kinda like a bread pudding with blueberries and cream cheese! (i'll share the recipe in a bit. They cam over for brunch and once my mom was in my house she nearly started crying. She was so impressed with my house and it made her think of me all grown up. It was too cute! we sat down to brunch and everyone loved the food. It was the blueberry delight along with thick sliced bacon backed with brown sugar sprinkled on top and mimosas! After eating and chatting it up a bit we watch the episode of "curb your enthusiasm" that had the Seinfeld reunion. They were too excited to be able to watch it because neither of them have HBO. The episode was pretty funny and we all had a good laugh. it was really nice to have them over and i was able to be the adult who was doing the entertaining. Also my mom brought over salmon that Jeff had caught so that night i made mat some salmon for dinner! Good eats all day long!

Five thing that have made me happy

Reading one of my blogs Expensive Mistakes and Cheap Thrills she asked what the five things that have made you happy lately... i just had to take the challenge of thinking about that one

FIRST thing to come to mind is Twitter of course! i love that i'm able to talk to all my good friends and i have made more new friends from all over the world!
SECOND would have to be Farm ville on facebook! i am so not a video game girl and i have played computer games but they never seem to hold my attention but i am fully addicted to farm ville. It is also really super fun that most all my friends are doin it too so you get to be a bit competitive!
THIRD Wearing sweaters and long sleeve shirts. I have a closest full of clothes i got last year that i absolutely LOVE and i was so excited when the weather got cold enough that i could wear them again... i love feeling like I'm getting a constant warm hug from a sweater!
FOURTH watching the eaves change colors. It is just starting and i just love seeing all the reds and oranges that are popping up all around. it makes driving to and from work so much more enjoyable!
Finally the FIFTH thing that has made me happy lately is candles. I have loved burning cinnamon and nutmeg candles all around my house filling it with a warm glowing that melts me into a puddle

so i pass on the question: What are the five things that have made you happy lately?

Fall For $40

Ok .... i confess i probably spent a little closer to $50 but still not too bad for some great decorations!

So fall hit me like a ton of bricks the first time i felt the nip in the air! i was so excited to be able to wear sweaters again. i was ready to snuggle up in a blanket in front of a warm fire. i was ready to eat a big bowl of soup! I am a girl who usually completely loves summer with all her heart but this summer had been a rough one... a bit more work and a lot less fun. More depression and less laughter. Too much sweating and not enough jumps in a cool lake. Now don't get me wrong it was a good summer but the warm fuzzy feeling fall brings me is just what i need to calm my spirit.

I went out on a mission to fill my house with that fall feeling but as always I'm on a tight budget. i headed straight to all my favorite bargain hunting stores; Marshall's, Ross and Micheal's! i went with the inspiration i had gotten from Whitney over at Glamorous Life Of a House Wife. Now i don't even have a budget like she does or have as nice of furniture as she does but i loved some of her ideas so i decided to run with them and give them my own twist.

I wanted a center piece but wasn't sure just how to go about it. i had always liked the bowl in the middle of the table idea so when i found this iron bowl with swirl pattern i just had to get it! ($7.99 at Marshall's) I got the cinnamon pine cones ($2.99) and fake leaves ($1.00 for 2 packages) at Micheal's and the pumpkins at QFC (about $2.00 for all three)





















I love how the bowl matches both my sconces and my table runner! not sure what to do with the gold vases but i thought the color was nice and warm.


I loved Whitney' s glass acorn shaped jar filled with sparkly acorns but it seems too much for me until i found a similar jar at Ross ($8.99) and fell in love with it!













I was worried about the C on the front but then i decided that if i always just had candy in it, it could stand for Candy jar!I always have to decorate my mantel but i love what i have on there right now i kind of hated to part with any of it. I found just a simple leaf garland ($2.50 at Micheal's) to lay across it along with two mini wreaths ($1.00 each at Micheal's)
Also i found this simple leaf dish ($1.99 at Ross) that i wasn't too sure what to do with it but decided it made a perfect spoon rest on top of my oven!
Finally i liked how she just had a simple dish of fall colored wrapped candy and that brought the warmth of the fall. The best part is that I didn't pay for the candy! mat got them for me for our anniversary (he knows the way to my heart!)
The candles i got at Walmart for $1.00 each. I got apple, cinnamon vanilla and pumpkin spice. Along with the candles i love to burn oils that i have from last year, Nutmeg and Cranberry. they really make the house smell good!

Over all I'm a very pleased with my fall decorations and my house feels so good now. I plan on burning my first log tonight while hangin out under a fuzzy blanket and watching a movie!

The Man I Love

October 1st. It's mine and Mat's 4 yr official anniversary!

We have really been none stop together for 6 yrs but the first two were spent getting to know each other and so nothing was really official till i laid down the law and forced him to commit lol! Our relationship has grown so much in the past few years it is amazing. We have grown so much more closer and been through so much. i don't know how we would have made it through without each other! Mat is always there for me when ever i need him. I know that he will pick me up when i fall and tell me to stop crying when i am being stupid. He is such an amazing man. he is always himself and can get along with anyone. He is a homebody but loves going out at times. He wants nothing but the best for us and tries with all his power to give it all to me! I love that he is never bored. He has so many hobbies that he is really great at. he is a hard worker at work and i can always rely on him to get his job done (i need to take a page out of his book on that one) He is an amazing writer and does it just for himself rarely showing his work to anyone. I learn something new about him all the time which keeps things exciting! I love that we are on the same page on most things like keeping the house clean and what to eat for dinner. We have such a great balance in our life that we rarely fight these days (trust me it took A LOT of fighting to get to this stage) i love the future i see for us. I can see us having an amazing and long life together. i know one day he will make a perfect husband and father. It is amazing the times when i am driving home and i will think of him and just BURS with love. every time i see him i just want to scream to the roof tops I LOVE YOU! (he even says i say it too often) My love for him can't be contained in just those 3 little words so i say it more often in hopes to some how explain just how big my love his for him! I love this man with every fiber of my being and i would NEVER do anything to hurt him.

So here's to Happily Ever After

I LOVE YOU MAT!

The wedding of her dreams!

OK i am finally making myself write a blog. Over a week ago was Laura and Daryl's wedding. i must say it turned out beautiful! Laura has got to be the most beautiful women and she made an absolute gorgeous bride! The Wedding went perfectly and we were lucky enough to have the rain hold out till we got indoors.
The wedding took place at the Hollywood School House in Woodinville. I had always drove by and loved the building. I think it was a perfect location for their wedding! It was the only day that week that had rain, but hey i say rain is a sign of good luck on your wedding day! Despite the rain the bride and all her maids had great spirits and the wedding was amazing. Laura of course was too shy to say her vows into the mic while Daryl sang his vows to her! It was so beautiful to watch them seal their love and i can see this marriage lasting a life time and beyond. it was also fun to watch Mat up there as a grooms men. He looked so amazingly handsome and i couldn't help but sneak a peek at him and imagine what it would be like to be marrying him.
The reception was so much fun! The food they had was amazing (Italian food: anti pasta, salad, fruit, pasta with marinara, Alfredo and meat balls! it was all absolutely yummy!) They had an open bar that offered not only wine and beer but electric ice teas (boy were those dangerous) After the fun food it was time for the toasts! God was i nervous! i had it all typed out and i read it clearly but looking back at a video of me GOD i totally talk like a valley girl lol! After all the stress was over it was time to dance and god did we dance out asses off! it was so much fun! the DJ was amazing and all the guests were so much fun!
We watched the bride and groom jump in their limo at the end of the night and they were off for their honeymoon in Jamaica! I can't wait to talk to her and hear all about it!

Greatest bachelorette party EVER!

Well Saturday has come and gone and i have to say the Bachelorette party i threw for Laura turned out better then i could have imagined! It took a little time to be able to check into the hotel but with my life saver (Tara's) help we made it in. Then fortunately she was available to help me set up so we got everything set up in record time and boy did it look great!


We had enough time to get ourselves ready and then the guest started to arrive! There were less people then i had invited (i had to plan for 20 people coming b/c only one person RSVP'ed ggrrr!!!) but I'm happy about that because i don't know how many more people we would have been able to fit into this hotel room.


We began the night eating all the yummy food i had brought. Mini croissant sandwiches, fruit tray, penis pasta, penis shaped rice crispy treats, chips and salsa, popcorn, and my pantie pull down punch. We played three games... Pin the hose on the firemen, We stuffed marshmallows in our mouth and said fuzzy balls, and played truth or dare. we all also did blow job shots. She got a bunch of crazy dirty gifts that were fun to watch her open!



After the festivities in the hotel we headed out to hit the town! we first went to the club i had planned for us to go to... club venom... but once we got there we weren't feelin it at all (Asian invasion) Laura really wanted to go to cowgirls so we walked all the way to pioneer square (stopping at some other fun bars on the way) Once at cowgirls we had a blast! we got a ton of great pictures and truly just danced the night away!


we stayed till the bar closed and after while we waited for D's man to come pick her up we talked with a few guys and Debbie kissed i think it was 3 of them! too entertaining! also Laura got picked up... literally! finally to end the night we walked all the way back to our hotel stopping at Taco Del Mar or a late night munchie.









The next morning Laura and i met up with our men and went to the first Seahawks game of the season! we had great seats (about 7 rows up from the field) we were pretty tired and directly in the sun but we had a great time and i actually learned something about the game! next time i will have even more fun!

my happyness

Lately it feels like i have been the happiest i have ever been. I don't have any real complaint or troubles. My life goes smoothly (for the most part) and i see my life moving ahead with all the hopes i have for myself! I am able to handle the little stresses much better these days without totally breaking down. it's weird there are times where i know that i would normally freak out and then i am shocked when i find myself not freaking out!

Lately i have been super happy but i have been invaded with people and thoughts of stress and unhappiness. i would say that others people's feeling are what have been my biggest stress lately. i find myself feeling almost guilty for being so happy while others seems so unhappy. i find myself trying to find some way to solve their problems so that they are able to experience even a little bit of the happy, pretty much stress free life i have. I am slowly learning that nothing i can do will be able to make people happy in their lives and the only thing i can do is be a friend and listen and have fun with the times we have together.

Sometimes i wonder why people continue on the paths that make them unhappy. it seems to me if you are unhappy you should take a proactive way of making it better. Maybe i am becoming an loud mouth activist on depression and seeking therapy but when i was unhappy, depressed, stressed out i couldn't live with it. i couldn't see myself being unhappy and moody forever so i did what i could to change that as fast as i possibly could. i see so many people who could get help but don't. i don't know if it is not wanting to admit that they are unhappy or that they don't think it will help but i wish i could just fix everything for everyone.

OK well enough of this depressing post. Lets go on with our days and enjoy the little things. Some of the little things i have loved so far today are: the sun peering through my window brightening my house, saying i love you to mat when he left for work, saying hello to optimuscupcake on twitter, the memory foam mattress pad we have on our bed, the feeling that i am actually losing the weight i have been working to lose, the excitement for the batchelorette party i am throwing on Saturday for my dear friend Laura, and the thought of the mini weight watchers pizzas for lunch!

A day with Laura Lorraine

Well as you might know my friends and i do days with each other rather then getting each other gifts for our birthdays. Last Thursday was my day with Laura. she had planned at day for us to go to Family Fun Center and have a blast! i was excited when she chose it because i have been wanting to go and she was the perfect person to do it with!

We arrived not knowing quite what the weather was going to be like but it turned into a perfect day! The sun was out and we were even pretty hot! We played mini golf first and we both got a hole in one! they have two courses so we played them both but by the end of the second game we were melting and ready to head inside to cool off a bit! We did almost everything they had to offer, bumper boats were by far our favorite! (pic of us soaking wet...goodness i look short!)You get to squirt everyone while driving around in your boat! You get SOAKED but it felt oh so good in the sun! we also did go karts twice because those are also one on my favs! It was fun to do the batting cages with her because she plays softball and it was fun to watch her skill! It kinda made me wanna play softball but i don't think i will. I would want to play with her but she is go good she probably wouldn't want a sucky ass player on her team lol! i bet i could be good though!

it was really nice getting to spend the day with her laughing and having fun! i love that girl!

dancing, drinking and laying by the lake

Well i was going to do a blog post for each even that happened last week but you know what i got tired. So i am combining the last few events into one post. Thursday we went out to Cow girls inc. It was our first time bringing Debbie out to a bar/club since she has discovered she likes drinking so it was a fun night! This girl used to hate going out and the crowds and the "bar scene" but we got a few drinks in her and we had her dancing on the stage! I'm pretty sure she really enjoyed herself too. It is so nice to see Debbie enjoying like and having fun. sometimes when she is down she can't seem to enjoy anything so to see her happy is a really nice thing.

It was also our last night out with just us girls before Laura's wedding. I mean we do still have the batchelorette party that I'm throwing in a week but that will have tons of girls with us (about 15 in total) so it was nice to have a night out that was just us before she ties the knot! She just loves to dance when she drinks and it is so much fun to watch her because she can be kinda held back in real life lol. She also LOVES to ride the bull so we rode it twice. She really didn't wanna fall off the second time around and tried with all her might to stay on and ended up with a HUGE bruise inside her thigh. It was pretty scary looking really.

On Saturday we all headed up to Laura's trailer to enjoy the very last bit of summer we had to hold onto. it was nice to get up there and just relax by the fire and then on Sunday we had amazing weather! We woke up to fog but it burned off and left us with bright sun and 80 degrees of warmth. Debbie discovered that she loves the Sea Doos just about as much as Tara does. Her exact words were "This is the funnest thing i have ever done!" I went on the Sea Doos for a bit but i really enjoyed just laying on a floaty in the water. but am i paying for that now! i got so sunburned and my face is peeling A LOT. I'm happy we were able to soak but that last bit of sun before the cloudy skies move it for MONTHS

Friendship is only a block away

Well i am glad and well bursting with happiness to announce that my girls (Tara and Kristin) are all moved into their apartment only about two blocks from my home! It is really fun that they have moved together since they have both been my best friends forever! It is so nice to be able to have my friends end up being close friends together. it is really hard to have many different groups of friends.... i much prefer everyone to be friends with everyone.

We did the big move... about a week and a half ago (yeah i know i am ssoooo slow that blogging these days) We started early in the morning (i had to drive the u-haul of course) it went amazingly fast and easy but we did end up filling the entire 16 foot truck and three cars. these girls have A LOT of stuff! The hard part was unpacking it all and finding room for all their stuff!

i took on the duty of unpacking their kitchen for them and i have to say i think i did a pretty good job. of course i don't know if they would tell me if they moved things around after i was done. They have an amazing table and are waiting on their couch which will hopefully be delivered some time after September 15Th.

Their house is so fun and girly because these girls are so big on pinks and other bright colors. they are perfect to be living together! they are very similar in their tastes! it is nice to have a girly place to go when i want a break from my boy (even though i did usually need a break very often cause i love him so!) Yesterday was the first day i hadn't gone to their apartment since hey moved in. i know that i will be there very often so i told them that they are welcome to tell me when i am over staying my welcome lol.

Laura's Bridal Shower

LAST Sunday was laura's bridal shower. her sister in law (and also bridesmaid) Tiffany threw it for her and did an absolutely amazing job at it! Kinda makes me nervous to throw the batchelorette party... it so won't be able to compare! She got the most amazing flower cupcakes to go with the luau theme. There were sandwiches and other yummy foods. it was fun to be able to meet the rest of laura's family. She also made out with A LOT of loot! i lost count on how many lingerie things she got. She also got a bunch of beach things that will go well for her honeymoon. My favorite part was that everyone brought a recipe card with an easy recipe for Laura to make!

I'm pretty sure the party was all she could have hopped for and i'm pretty sure she wasn't too embarrassed being the center of attention the whole time (she was worried about that beforehand)