we'll as you can see i have been changing around my blog and it's layout for a little while now. At first i really liked my new layout but after a while it felt too busy and i felt like you couldn't read everything without a lot of distraction. So i went and looked for a new layout and i think i have come to one that i will keep around for a while. I found the layouts on another blog... http://alliebrownslayouts.blogspot.com/ She has a ton of layouts to choose from and she provides step by step instructions on how to do it. trust me i didn't have a clue on how to change the background on my blog! i also added a fun header and removed the dotted lines that plagued my new layout. I'm not sure about any other pages that provide layouts but I'm sure i will be looking around.
Changing around my blog got me thinking. I have had people ask me why i would have a blog. a blog that is basically public for god knows who will read. at first all i could think of was why not, i like to talk about myself. but i thought about it a little more and i realized that when ever i have written in a journal i have always wondered what people would say if they were to read it. i wondered if what i wrote someone else could connect to and maybe knowing how i felt would make them feel like they aren't so alone. or maybe if i knew people where reading what i had to say and cared about what i had to say maybe i wouldn't feel so alone. i also realized that i am not a privet person. not even in the slightest. i try not to do things in my personal life that i would be ashamed if people knew about me. In fact i, a lot for times, am proud of the things that i do and i feel that if i share it with people they will better understand the person i am and the person i am becoming as i grow. Finally i also thought about the future. it would be absolutely amazing to look back at this blog and see all the things i have gone through and all the things i have had to say about my relationships and myself. Maybe one day I'll look back on this for my wedding to help me write my vows or look back on this when i have children to remember the simpler days. maybe I'll look back at the struggles I've had and learn from my mistakes or realize something about myself i didn't realize at the time. all of these reasons and more are the reasons i keep a blog.
so whether you love or hate what i write this is me and this is how i am feeling at any given time. nothing i write is ever meant to offend someone and there might even be times that i write how i am feeling and my feelings will change the very next day but at least i will be able to remember these times and remember who i am!