My Life According to Me: February 2009

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Brianna's giveaway!

Hey there my friend and ex co-worker is having a give away on her blog. She is giving away a necklace that is brought to her by global daughter! This is a wonderful company that helps women all over the world! so check it out!

http://alwayscountingtothree.blogspot.com/2009/02/giveaway.html

Monday, February 23, 2009

i don't fit in a box

For my whole life i have been searching for an identity. A key factor in myself to tell me who i am. I was once a tom boy. i hated pink and i wanted so much to be like my brother and be one of the boys. I would hang out with my brother and his friends and we thought we were in a gang... the gang of crossroads mall... bad ass right. Then i become a bit older and i thought i could play sports. i played soft ball and soccer for 2 yrs yet i never really loved playing and i always hated sweating and running. Then i thought maybe i could be artistic. I took pottery classes and stained glass classes and wore "Unique" clothes because i wanted to be an individual. my main focus was to be an individual. i never wanted to be one of the "preppy" kids in school. I didn't quite fit in with the G's in school because i could never be quite bad ass enough. The goths/drama/band kids always just seemed embarrassing and odd. I hung out with a big group of Asians at lunch two yrs of Jr high but never hung out with them outside of school and never really could hold a conversation with them. I've taken yearbook for half a year and was on the newspaper 3/4Th's a school yr till i moved to Kirkland. Once i got even older i became wilder. I was willing to do anything for a good time (don't get me wrong i never did anything bad.. never even drank till i was 19 or 20) But i was the fun one. I was the one with the car who was willing to drive two hrs in the rain to a community collage that a co-worker had said had cowboys attending there. (remember that Debbie?) Once i graduated high school and got my first kiss (yeah it took me till after i graduated sad i know!) i found a new love of attention. I became a girl how dated. i went out with just a few guys and kinda enjoyed flirting with a few of the guys that i worked with. i loved to go out dancing... seeing how many different crazy guys i could get to rub up against me! But even dating wasn't my favorite thing in the world. It always seemed so fake, so uncomfortable. It also seemed like all the guys ever wanted was one thing SEX! I was good at turning them down but still it frustrated me. would this be how it is forever?
Then Mat and i started hanging out and pretty much my whole world changed. The need to find an identify suddenly disappeared. I was comfortable with myself around him. He never seemed to judge me, never expected anything in particular from me. We were just together, getting to know one another. I feel like i have found the life i was meant to lead. For me it was never finding what career i wanted from my life, there was never anything that really interested me. For me life is about finding someone to be yourself around. Mat and i have built such an ideal life together and everyday i am so thankful for everything i have and i would trade a single thing! So i will work at Safeway and not return to collage any time soon. We will one day get married and have children and i will be happier then i could even imagine.
I am a girl who loves to get dressed up and go out but every other day dresses in jeans and a plain shirt with a hoodie. I never can quite put an outfit together. i love to do face masks and take bubble baths but keeping my nails painted is just too much work. i wear makeup simply because my face looks less red and if i could avoid it i would and most days i do. i love to be out doors going camping and short hikes are fun! i love to travel and see shows. i love eating and am just beginning to branch out and try new things. i love to be at home cleaning and making dinner. i love the way my house feels at the end of a day of cleaning. i love to lay on my freshly vacuumed carpet. i would love to wear sweats and tank tops all the time. i hate going into gas stations because i don't like talking to the clerk. I, in general, don't like meeting new people unless for work because I tend to never know what to say so everyone thinks I'm quite. i like watching movies that make me all warm and fuzzy but i have to be careful because some movies are a trick and they will make me depressed for a half hr afterwards ("He's just not that into you" is an example.) half of my favorite movies are horror movies and there is nothing i love me then a horror movie marathon with a bowl full of popcorn and a pile of candy.
I am me... and i am (for the most part) happy with who i am.

But don't get me wrong i do get insecure! what girl doesn't!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Bob Saget and the Snoqualmie casino!

we are currently waiting for the bob Saget show to start. it has been a pretty great day so far... we drove up early so maybe find a hotel but they were all pretty ghetto so we decided ro pass on that idea, which kinda upset me because I was already excited about the idea of drinking lots and crashing in a hotel room. we instead decided to watch friday the 13th in theatre and grab lunch at red robin. we then headed to the casino. first machine that I put my money into (just test if they take money or tickets) and I ended up getting my money back 4x! so my 20$ turned into 80$! I kept playing and I am currently down to 50$ but that is still up 30 which is better then I have ever done and I'm actually excited about gambling! We wanted to grab something to eat before the show... what an event! the buffet line is about 3 hr wait and the sushi place has a pretty long line as well.... we decided on the box car cafe... still stood in line for 30 minutes but we got our food and it was much better then I expected. over all we are having a pretty fun time.... on drink number two... I really wish I had brought my flask though cause pop is free and I could had drank more for cheaper lol. anyways wish me lack for the rest of the night!

Friday, February 20, 2009

I've started a band!

Here are the rules:

1 - Go to "wikipedia." Hit “random”
or click http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random

The first random wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.

2 - Go to "Random quotations" by clicking: http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3

The last four or five words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.

3 - Go to flickr and click on “explore the last seven days”
or click http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days

Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

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1. The Name of My Band is: Jenny Jump

2.Name of my Album: You have to be someone more

3. And this is my album cover!

Well i really think it has all turned out quite well!! i am proud of the bad i have formed! lol

Thursday, February 19, 2009

I'm making brownies!

although I'm not complealty doin great on my diet but I have a cabinet filled will cake a brownies mixes so I thought I'd make a yummy snack. these are low fat brownies in all ways. I used a low fat brownies mix and then just mixed in a can of pumpkin and ta da brownies goodness without all the guilt! I made a small pan so that the brownies would be thick... I think next time I will make them in a bigger pan so we get more brownies out of it.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

it's been a while

It has been a while and people have actually taken notice that i haven't updated in a while so i thought i would sit down and write a little about what has gone one in the past few weeks. A lot has changed and we have gone through a lot. Work has changed slightly in that i have taken my test for RLD... This is that training that Safeway puts you through in order to become an assistant manager and hopefully eventually a store manager. This test is a test of your skills and your knowledge as well as a slight personality test to asses if you would make a good manager or if there are still things you need to learn to move forward. That being said i have NO IDEA how i did on the test. We get our results back in mid-march and i am hoping very much that i pass but i will not let myself be upset if i don't. It is a test that not everyone passes the first time. I hope that i pass but if i don't i will take what i can learn and try to pass next time. the worst thing would be if i became an assistant when i wasn't ready and i was completely overwhelmed by the job. If i do pass the test there are a few other steps before i am excepted into RLD training. there will be a background test, a managers evaluation as well as a panel interview with two store managers and someone from human resources. if i pass all these steps THEN i will be accepted in RLD! wish me luck!
Another change at work is that i will be doing the MEDS... these are all the ends of the aisles that change every week when our ad changes. This change is exciting because it gives me more chance to learn about things i don't know yet. it is also a bit of a change because i will be working at 4am three days a week! a big change from my 4pm to midnight shift i have become quite used to. I will also be closing the other two days a week so hopefully i will be able to live through that change. I for one know i don't know everything and there is nothing i hate more then feeling completely confused and overwhelmed at something i really want to do. i know that one day I'll be able to do everything i just need to learn how, the difficult part for me is that i get upset when i don't get things right the first time. I'm trying to work on that.
We got a dining room table FINALLY! as well as a new book shelf for the computer room. It is so exciting to see my home finally coming together. Mat and i have grown so much as a couple. We started with NOTHING! We had barely been officially dating when we moved in together and we had no furniture. we used my old twin bed as a couch and got hand me down coffee table and chair. we never had a dining room table and when we would through party's we would barrow a card table from my parents! Now, i would have kept buying low quality stuff that would be good for a quick fix but mat outlawed anymore hand me downs and stressed the meaning of quality furniture and eventually i saw the light. so we saved money and bought each piece of quality furniture piece by piece. first our bedroom dressers and night stand, then our TV and TV stand, then our couch and coffee table. Finally we had an apartment that could fit a dining room table yet still we had to save so we could buy a quality wood dining room table that could seat six, i wanted it to have a leaf that could make the table bigger or smaller. These are the things i wanted and that stopped us from just getting a table at ikea, which we had picked out and almost bought but couldn't fit in our car. The book shelf we got is really exciting as well. we had a small book shelf that could barely hold all my books and games and it just didn't look pretty. this book self is nearly three times larger and it holds all my book and mats book and our games as well as picture frames! it really makes the room feel so much better! i can just sit a stare at the book case beaming with joy! I'm so domestic i love it!
Mat's mom also passed away about two weeks ago. This has been a difficult time for mat and his family, as well for me. She was a big hearted women who loved her family so much! Mat may not have been super close with his mom but he saw her way more then i see my mom, i saw her more then i see my mom. She was always there for him whenever he needed help. I know that she will be extremely missed by everyone she knew. The only thing i can do is be here for mat. I wish i could take some of his pain and feel it for him. I know that this is going to be a long process that will never go away but i know mat will be OK. He is so strong and i am so proud of him! I love him so much and i can't wait to see the bright future i know we will have together.
Over all it has been a pretty intense few weeks but i seemed to live through it all. It seems like in times like this i turned to live in the present. I didn't constantly make plans for what i was going to do next. i didn't plan out every step of that day, i didn't plan out every detail of a night out and i didn't worry about these things either. it was kind of nice to live in the now. not worrying about the future whether it be a day or a year away. i hope i will be able to do that more in the future.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Life's Ups and Downs

Mat and i have had quite a traumatic weekend to say the least... Although i can't even imagine what mat must be going through as well as his family i am here for him no matter what. i might not be able to summon up just the right thing to say but I'm here to listen or sit in silence until all his wounds are held. i only wish i could take some of the pain away.
on the upside he was able to see a lot of his family and for that i am thankful.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Forks, WA...Twilight Hot Spots

I began reading the Twilight books just on a whim when i heard so many people talking about it. I was resistant at first because it was such a craze for teenagers and i thought i was too old for that stuff. Friends of mine recommenced the books so for my 15 lb reward i got the hard cover book of twilight from Barnes and Noble. Feeling like a complete nerd the whole time mat and i made a joke about it, but after reading just a few pages i was hooked!!! This has got to be one of the great love stories i have read. I read the four books in about two weeks ( a slow pace for most lol) The day after finishing the last book Debbie and i headed to Forks, Wa the place where the book was based! It was so much fun because the whole town loves that the book was based there and they have really embrassed the idea. We got a map that gave us all the twilight hot spots around the town such as the police station, bellas house, the cullen house, bellas truck and more. More then just seeing everything from the book it was also fun to spend the day with debbie. We were insperable in high school but drifted apart a bit once we graduated. It is so nice to still be freinds with her and know that we can go on day trips like this and it feels like nothing has changed! She is truely a great friend to have in my life.

Now for the pictures!...